sweetness and light

Just rediscovered my polyvore account! Here are some things that I made two years ago that I would wear now:

snowy day!

1 foot of snow and counting here in Boston. I am here in my living room, looking outside the window at the magical snowy day, nestled up in blankets with a steaming hot cup of green tea. I couldn't go in to work today because of the weather, so I'm trying to do some creative projects, like finish this sweater, make some collages (if you wanna see some more of my work, click here), update my tumblr, maybe make some sets on polyvore of what I want to wear this spring, do some reading. I am also planning on rewatching "The Life Aquatic" and "Ghost World."


There's a little more than 2 weeks left til I go back to school, yay! I'm excited to take new classes and see everyone again. I am going to try to switch my schedule around so I'm taking German, Japanese Lit., Philosophy, Art History and Physics. 

I predict that there will be lots of new/weird/strange/exciting developments next semester. I will be taking some really interesting classes and will be doing more work with some art and childhood literacy programs I am involved with. I will have much more work than I did last semester but that is ok with me! I am so excited for it to get warm out! Campus so beautiful when it's sunny outside. 


Things ended a bit weirdly last semester and I'm sort of confused about how to go about things with certain people. I'm a bit impatient about how things are gonna be with one person in particular... ugh, I hate waiting!


Also, I am getting a new roommate when I get back. My old roommate moved out in October due to some communication issues (namely that she refused to speak to me). I've been living in a single since then, which has been nice because I have a lot of space but I'm excited to live with someone again. All my friends get along so well with their roommates, so I'm very hopeful that I'll have a good second roommate experience!


See ya later. 


 

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The title is kind of how I feel right now. After spending a long day with my parents, I have realized they have absolutely no idea how to talk to me at all. But I don't really have anything to say to them, either... which is a pretty depressing thing to realize.


Like is there some kind of manual parents can read for dealing with newly independent children? I feel like maybe I should be putting more effort into this, making things not so painfully awkward for us all but what is there for me to do? My mom talks to me like I am 5 years old and then gets angry when I point out that I'm not, and my dad is socially retarded. AGH. Sorry, really needed to get that off my chest!


Last night, I got dinner with a friend and then some other people came over and we played around on Photo Booth (I've had this computer for almost 6 months now and as of last night, I had yet to use it).

Today I saw "Black Swan," and it was really fucked up but also completely amazing. I've never really liked any of Darren Aronofsky's other films but this one was just totally immersing. I love it when you see a movie where it's so obvious just how much work was put into every single aspect of it-- the dialogue, the camerawork, the art direction-- to make it a wholly cohesive narrative. 


In other news, tomorrow is Christmas so that means more movies and Chinese food! And then its two days of everything being closed (tomorrow and Sunday), and then it's Monday, and both my parents are working so I can finally not have to awkwardly entertain them and maybe I can get started on some reading to do from now til when I won't be bored anymore.  I want to go to a Pilates class but weirdly enough, there are no Pilates studios in my town. So I guess that means I'll be doing it in my living room while I surf etsy slash contemplate a haircut slash try and figure out what I'm taking next semester. How many days till break ends?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVxru1vTa0Q





also lololol i am sitting in peets laughing to myself watching this, oh what a winner i am

can't you find a clue when your eyes are all painted sinatra blue

Is the first break home from college supposed to feel this weird? I don't know, something about being home makes me feel so stagnated and just stuck. It's like I've moved on from this place and am not sure what to do with myself now that I am here. I do not want to see people from high school. I do not want to do things with my parents. All my fun and excitement and lovely people are in Ohio, not here!

My house also feels very strangely dead or just not awake.  Like I just suddenly noticed how... beige... everything is. And its like every single corner of the house is stuffed with newspapers or books, just paper. All the rest is so sparse.

So begins day 2 of break! I am trying to read Infinite Jest in its entirety to pass the time. So far it's not as hard to understand as everyone says, but chronologically it's a little confusing. I am wondering if David Foster Wallace is perhaps a little overrated. Also I am starting this blog cause Rachel inspired me to! And I will be starting my internship soon so that'll take up some time.  Also rereading old books, trying to watch everything on my Netflix instant queue, doing more yoga, making clothes, FINALLY LEARNING HOW TO DRIVE. finally. 


One thing I've noticed since being home is just how weird my parents are/ my relationship is with them. I don't think they can handle not babying me. I'm so independent at school so it really sucks to come home and feel under house arrest...


This stupid 1 hour you have to buy something Peets coffee internet time will be running out soon so I should go. I spent most of the time trying to write an email to my potential new roommate. emails just make everyone sound so awkward.